It all started with strangers, smiles, friends and finally something deeper. In the beginning he was sweet to the extent you felt like you were going to die of diabetes, then slowly laziness kicks in (because human, nothing lasts forever just like how i never have the will to make my bed all the time).
Conversations got less and less exciting and eventually boils down to "What are you doing?", "Wanna eat?" and "How was your day?" Everything eventually more and more mundane.
Previously when you both fought he will return at late night after he had calmed down, apologised for being such a jerk and talked like everything will be okay. Gradually, all you will receive are just cold shoulders (yes even now) or worst losing a status.
Love is like the most frustrating ever i swear. Being in a relationship is like a package. It consists of both the good and the bad stuffs. You have a choice remember and that is either you will brace the good stuffs in a package and let the bad stuffs collect dust or the exact opposite.
I had been through a lot of shit. Love was the best experience i had in my life because it has been toying my feelings like a roller coaster bitch. Sometimes i felt like i'm living in sheer bliss and sometimes i felt like omg-i-can-punch-you-in-your-face. Ultimately, love had taught me to love myself more than anyone. Because your partner will not be there for you all the times, yes face the facts and there were definitely times he will place himself before you. Things you do might just go unappreciated and you will end up pondering "why the fuck do i even bother when he doesn't give a fuck."
I want to be a doctor. I also want to be a villain. My two goals in life are such an irony i know. I just don't want to get hurt and yes i am bitching about my boyfriend openly here because he doesn't give a fuck even though many months ago i told him i have a blog. :D Wait, no i didn't quarrel with him earlier. It's just me accepting the facts and i really shouldn't give a fuck.
Greetings blank,
ReplyDeleteThe person I love showed me this post today. And yes I was like your boyfriend or even worse for I have hurt her again and again; as days went by, laziness kicked in, everything got more and more mundane, and eventually I felt like I would be better off alone. But, after losing her, I realized I’m not better off alone; I simply can’t forget her, I simply can’t fall in love again with anyone else, I really need her. However, she no longer needs me now.
She also said “nothing lasts forever” was my one of my frequent phrases that had hurt her umpteen times. However, the fact that nothing lasts forever is because people do change. But then again, there’re always two sides to everything; some change for the worst, others simply change for the better!
“You said you won’t change me because you love me but I will change myself because I love you”
I can feel that you love him so much that you can’t let him go. Don’t let him go, never! Talk to him about how you feel. Give him a chance for him to cherish you. I wish you happiness always; as days go by, everything gets more and more meaningful, more and more blissful!!
“The brain always chooses the best choice but very often we can’t refuse what the heart wants; follow your heart!” c:
-FS-
A song for you to cheer up:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T5bUTwGDu5k