Growing up.

"I am currently 'torturing' kids"

That's how i always describe what i do now. Each time i look at them, i wonder what is it feel like to be like them.

Approximately a decade ago when i was about their age, i contemplate what does it feel like to be an adult. I yearned to grow up, yearned to earn, yearned for much more freedom, yearned to purchase whatever i was not allowed to at that point of time.

A decade later, i sometimes wished i had the chance to do it all over again. Being a kid, I had loads of homework (yes definitely, which kid does not?), I was an introvert; afraid to speak and fear people notice me. I would say i pretty much did not quite enjoy my childhood. But back then, i laughed much more often. As a kid, everything in this world seem new and so every little thing seemed to amuse. I would want to change my childhood, i want to be a much happier kid.

I am not saying i am very unhappy with life. I am currently unsatisfied because each day does not really seem fulfilling enough. Sometimes i feel as if i am wasting each day because i have not seem to achieve anything significant enough. Am i the only one who feels like this?

Oh well, i kind of miss my poly life now.