i'm not responsible. But why am i always the one taking the blame?

Change.

I've changed, for you.

Sometimes i just feel so pathetic. Where was the egoistic and arrogant attitude of mine?

I'm disappointed in you, yes i am.
But i love you.

I had a talk with mumsy a couple of days ago that started with money issue. Then she asked me what's my plan for the future.
I can clearly tell you how i am going to do it. Although i am still sometimes uncertain of my capabilities but i will do it.

Because i know, i want to make her proud of me too.

When my strength was gone, and I just gave up on life
In my darkest place you were my guide
And you told me that I should live my life to the limit
When you fall down get back up and fight
Well the shape of my heart don’t lie
I’m determined when you trust in me
It's all I need

Now I’m hoping, if you hear this
You believe that all that I do is to make you proud
Make me stronger, so that I rise up
Made my mind up
So that all that I do is to make you proud
Proud, proud, make you proud, proud
Proud, proud, make you proud, proud
All that I do is to make you proud

I never gave up then cause you said keep hope alive
The champion gives one last try
Said I deserve the best in life
I should be winning
Gotta spread your wings and prepare to fly
Well the shape of my heart don’t lie
I’m determined with your faith in me
To make you see

Now I’m hoping, if you hear this
You believe that all that I do is to make you proud
Make me stronger, so that I rise up
Made my mind up
All that I do is to make you proud
Proud, proud, make you proud, proud
Proud, proud, make you proud, proud
All that I do is to make you proud

Nobody can tell me they were there for me
Before you came around
There was pain in every heart beat
But eventually you built my reserve to be strong

Now I’m hoping, if you hear this
You believe that all that I do is to make you proud
 Now I’m hoping, if you hear this
You believe that all that I do is to make you proud
Make me stronger, so that I rise up
Made my mind up
All that I do is to make you proud
Proud, proud, make you proud, proud
Proud, proud, make you proud, proud
All that I do is to make you proud
 Proud, proud, make you proud, proud
Proud, proud, make you proud, proud
All that I do is to make you proud

Hi C

This post is for you but you'll probably not see it cause you probably didn't know the existence of this blog,

So we met up today. There were a tinge of awkwardness perhaps but i thought that was alright since we haven't met for slightly past a year? You are the one speaking, like always and i am always the one listening no doubt.

I am grateful that you had gotten over those horrendous period and moved on with life buoyantly. Utmostly, her existence will bring back the mirthful you i used to know.


As from now, i can finally lift the heavy heart of mine. :)

Sometimes, i wished someone would throw me a party. A real party.